laying my worries out before bed
people say it isn't good to go to bed mad when you have a partner. as a single person, i think the closest thing i have to that is not going to bed anxious.
i have been a bundle of nerves today ahead my day of travel. in order to lighten the weight on my shoulders and feel better tomorrow, i'm going to lay out all the things that made me anxious today.
- a group conversation at a restaurant where speech overlaps, topics change, and utensils clang against plates. these environments are often overstimulating to me.
- being completely unprepared for my trip
- the usual boisterousness of family dinners in a kitchen that acts like a pinball machine bouncing sound around from corner to corner in a blink of an eye. it's hard to know who to listen to because everyone speaks at the same time; something is happening wherever i look.
- the stressful process of planning outfits for each day of a trip based on multiple factors, including weather (hot and humid), the occasion, comfort, and style.
- the last things to worry about tomorrow: the weight of my luggage hopefully not exceeding the maximum weight allowed; remembering to bring my toothbrush, toothpaste and tongue scrubber which are always my suitcase's last passengers and therefore the things i often have to buy again or request at the hotel/airbnb; getting a speck of work done; arriving at the airport on time (not that i can control traffic); and building up the mental strength to speak to strangers.
well, i can't really say i'm any less anxious... i might have worsened it. on the bright side, i have a checklist ready for me when i wake up.
a Winnie the Pooh quote to help soothe buzzy nerves:
Rivers know this: There is no hurry. We shall get there some day.