starting something new is always scary. i even hesitated a little before clicking "new post." but i am here, writing something because i can and because it doesn't need to be perfect. the only requirement is my desire to create something and i am set (i try to tell myself as assertively as i can...).

new things, moments, happenings, etc.:

• i finally threw out the moldy shower curtains. now to hang the new shower curtain liner.
• two days ago i spent most of the day building a (fake) lego set. lots of swearing at minuscule plastic blocks but it was nice to unglue myself from a screen.
• over the weekend i transplanted some butternut squash and chili pepper sprouts. raking my fingers through the speckled soil was satisfying. it had been a while since i played in nature like that, bugs and all. it reminded me of being 11 and squishing warm, muddy water between my toes. i was squeamish then and even moreso now, but play always seems to cancel that part out.
• i voluntarily socialized over the weekend as well. a little awkward but i was able to do it and that's what matters.
• new headphones are doing their job to help me both focus and stay distracted. two thumbs up!

i am racking my brain trying to think of other new things but it's hard when all i do is stay in my comfort zone. i know, it's a vice at this point.